Sunday, November 30, 2014

PostHeaderIcon Wanderer's, Journey's and Destinations

Tangie Baxter introduced me to art journaling in 2010 with her first Art Journal Caravan. I thought I was in sheer heaven. I had never heard of nor seen anything like it before. My scrapbook experience was based in the traditional paper style of scrapping with all things archival and safe for the next thousand years. My digital experience was in Paint Shop Pro creating signature tags. Art journaling was the perfect blend of both. I could scrapbook or art journal all digital, all mixed media or combine the two. Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy!!!! Four years of being a part of Tangie's Art Journal Caravan has taught me that it's up to me to make time to create and very acceptable to express my feelings through my art. Creatively my world was wide open and this led me to stumble upon a little store called Deviant Scrap recently renamed Mischief Circus with so many different styles of mixed media and digital journaling. The designers are beyond stellar and the gallery will take your breath away with all the artsy inspiration!! 

Each year since the Art Journal Caravan Tangie has organized a yearly book project. This year's theme was Not all those who Wander are Lost which fit into the yearly caravan theme. I honestly had NO idea what direction my page would take but after looking through my gallery over at Mischief Circus I decided I wanted to do a series of pages using this fabulous little sky pirate
She looks so adventurous and bold and that's how I want to be in real life and most especially creatively. NO HOLDING BACK! Wandering purposely and enjoying things as they come, thus the title "Wanderer". I am thinking one more will come to complete the series. I will then treat myself and print them for the corner of the living room I have claimed as my artsy spot or either my bedroom so I can wake up each morning with reminders to enjoy the ride. Click >HERE< view all the credits.  Here is a peek at the first piece titled "The Journey is the Destination". 

The theme going into this one was Passport Dreaming

Where will your journeys take you?

Saturday, November 22, 2014

PostHeaderIcon Love is a Battlefield with Edgar Allan Poe

I never expected that after my last posting that I would take so long to post again but that's what happens when the husband "shares" his cold. The horrid awful thing about it though was that I nursed my daughter through hers and I did not get sick. I have taught her well the "rules of quarantine" for our home. I have the unfortunate luck that when I get sick....I get REALLY sick!!! Seriously....death bed sick!! My husband failed to really realize that. I loved on him by cooking homemade tomato soup, ooey gooey grilled cheese sandwiches, bag fulls of medications all the while trying to keep a safe buffer zone. He did not follow the rules of "no touch". Not only did he not follow that rule, he expressed his gratitude for all the comfort I lovingly provided by sharing big hugs and kisses on the cheek....several times.....and screaming like he had the ebola virus to get away and love me from afar. 

Sooooo.....I got caught with a cold BIG time and then with the weather changing add some sinus headaches to the mix and I have been pretty non-functional for 3 weeks. I am very much grateful that I have been feeling good enough to get up piddle about some again. 

In between feeling alive and dead I was able to get the creative juices flowing and created this page using CryztalRain's Edgar Allan Poe kit from Micheif Circus. I totally did not see this one evolving until I was halfway through because I so wanted to do more of a haunting spooky type page but as all you art journalers know......we create the way our heart leads us. I still love it even though it's not what I set out to create. 

 The quote reads Love is a Battlefield • Heartache to Heartache We Stand • Love is a Battlefield inspired by Pat Benatar and the font used is Telescoping by Tangie Baxter. 

I will leave you with this beautiful ballad and who might inspire you also. ♥

Friday, October 31, 2014

PostHeaderIcon A Broken Soul

Yes. I have been hiding under a rock. Even now I don't want to come climbing out but life is passing me by and I have to either decide to live it or just totally give in.  I have spent the past few months trying to redefine what my marriage should be.....or rather....I knew what it should have been (AND WHAT I THOUGHT IT WAS) but the other half did not. I will not give out gory details but an alcohol addiction that my husband was able to hide from me because of the way he was away for work all the time was the driving force for a life evaluation and choice I was given to either walk away or stay. I have chosen to stay. I made a commitment that I will honor even though I had every reason in the world not to.  I am still on shaky ground with tons of emotions from all the fall out. At first I clung to my faith.....then I cursed God.....and then clung some more....I am still working out hurt and anger and trying to surround myself with positive. I just never thought I could love someone and want to hurt him like I was hurting all at the same time.  No one died, yet there was a death. A part of me died. I don't know if I will ever get it back.  My critics have painted me as a "glass half empty" kinda girl but I am really the "glass half full" girl. I believe in people and give them way to many chances when most people would just cut their losses. I do believe people can change. I have. I have needed chances. I guess that is why I will always risk getting hurt even when the smart thing would be to run in the opposite direction.   

I am slowly getting the courage to believe in myself again. My brain knows I am not responsible for my husband's less than stellar behavior but emotionally all I can do it think of all the what if's I did this or that, or if I was prettier, sexier, skinnier, fatter, all the awful things we women can think of to do damage to our self esteem. And I should add this....he does not blame me for any of his bad decisions or his drinking. He has taken full responsibility.
It however, does not stop me from fighting the feeling of being inadequate. 
I go to bed every night with the resolve to wake up and face the day fiercely....the first few weeks the resolve was to wake up and just make it through the day.

Over these past few years I had quit and/or severely cut back on doing the things I enjoyed such as art journaling, photography, scrapbooking or just going out and doing girly things. All this in a effort of what I thought would let him know that I wanted to give him attention and listened to how he felt. In the end, I lost. I gave up my identity. The sad part is that I did not even know it. I prided myself on being a strong independent woman who could tackle the world but that was just the pretty picture I got good at letting the world see. Love should not take away from who you are. Love should add. Two shall become one....but the one should also still be a functioning and thriving individual. I was not that anymore. My life revolved around his wants, needs etc....he didn't demand it. He didn't have to. He wasn't home like we wanted so I felt like I NEEDED to be at his beck and call when he was.  No I was not perfect. Not the perfect housewife in the perfect mood or any of that jazz like you would see on the Leave it to Beaver show. 

So here I am just trying to reconnect with the world and put my broken soul back together. I will never be the same person I was but I am very much working on being okay with that fact. I don't know how long it will take but I am hoping that on this journey to heal and rediscover who I am again that I will wake up one one morning and I won't have to "try" to face the day fiercely because it will be the day that will be going "Whoa!!!! Look out!!! Here she comes!!!" and I will have the joy back of just being the best me I can be.

*Just a couple of extra notes. The husband is no longer working a job that takes him away from home and he has been alcohol free since July 5th. I am very proud of him for that.  

*RedHead Girl Photography is little ole me. 

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

PostHeaderIcon Exploring Photo Apps

This marks the last week of our massive spring cleaning.  The annual youth group rummage sale is set for this coming weekend and what is not boxed and sent by tomorrow will be donated to Goodwill or "if" I can find room to store it till next year I will. After a couple of loads of the car stuffed from the backseat to the trunk, I don't think I will have many things left to worry over. 

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The very best places to get free and easy to manage boxes are Radio Shack's (they get deliveries on Wednesdays) and banana boxes from the grocery store. The banana boxes are my favorite because they have handles. 

When not doing that, I have been driven batty with trying to get my Olympus DSLR working properly but I have come to the conclusion that it has come time to start saving up for a new camera. I will admit that I whined and felt sorry for myself for a bit but then decided to take it as a challenge. The best camera is the one that you have with you sooooooo since I have my iPhone with me almost all the time I decided to see how far I can stretch the creativeness of the photography apps and practice my general photo taking skills.  

Here is a before photo of my DD. No editing. Taken with my iPhone 5.

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And here is the After. I loved her profile in this and I wanted to do something really artsy but worthy of framing. 

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I am very pleased with how it turned out. The only thing that bugs me is the gap on the shadow on the horizontal arrow. What looked good on the small screen on my iPhone doesn't when I see it on a bigger screen. (oh how I would ♥ and iPad) I can't tell you what settings or what order I used these time I share before/after photos I will be more prepared to share those steps. 
Here's the apps I used:
Rhonna Designs 

Here is another Before, no editing and taken with the iPhone 5. The afternoon sun was absolutely gorgeous shining on this Red Flowering Quince. It's one of the first things to bloom in the spring.

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This is the After. Again, I was just playing around just to see how far I could push the apps and keep my photo looking like a cool artsy piece that I would actually be proud to frame. 

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Apps used:

All export at full resolution and all of them have in app purchases for extra filters. In my personal opinion you get a lot of bang for the buck and the extras run from 99 cents to $2.99, definitely nothing too outrageously expensive.

I would absolutely love to hear and see anything you have edited with apps. Link me up so I can leave you some love!!!!♥

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Just an everyday girl trying to find my way in the world to live life fiercely and passionately. I was a signature tagger for several years but art journaling has replaced that passion and it feeds my soul creativiely and spiritually. I also homeschool my DD, scrapbook, play around in photography, spoil my cats and drive my hubby insane on a daily basis. My faith in the Lord helps me juggle all these blessings. I keep this blog because it makes me happy. Sometimes I blog a lot and other times it collects a little dust. Thanks for visiting and being my friend.♥
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